I have 2 missions in this world.

My parents (especially my father) were extremely egotistical.

He had all the right to be that way however, because of how wildly successful he was when he was in this youth.

He gave up everything he had built and spent almost every dime the family had left to immigrated all 4 children and themselves to USA, in hopes for us all to have a better life.

Coming from a somewhat traditional Asian family and upbringing, the idea of being doctors to their eyes is the pinnacle of success, and that’s exactly what he had planned for me.

Right after High School I was sent to a medical school outside of USA to start perusing the journey of becoming a doctor.

Here I am, 8 years later, sitting in front of my laptop trying to convince you to NOT make the same mistake that I made, which was saying yes to the idea of becoming a doctor against my will.

Why did I even say yes in the first place?

I could blame the culture I grew up in, I could blame my education from when I was still in Asia, I could blame how towering and intimidating my parents would be if I were to say no, and I can blame the world.

I did for a while, blaming all the things I listed above.

Here I am, 8 years later, I have mature enough in all mental, spiritual and physical realms to finally realize that I’m to blame.

Nothing that would’ve happened, no matter how scary it seemed at the moment, would be worst than what I’d gone through in the past 8 years.

Here I am, 8 years later, I have 2 missions:

My 1st mission is to prevent any more people from going into medical school for all the wrong reasons (money and status).

Prevention is the best medicine right? (News flash, medical students still smoke cigarettes and pass STDs around like its candy)

Everything from the outside will always look like sunshine and rainbows, when in reality it’s an absolute cesspool of a place hidden underneath.

It is virtually impossible to see the whole truth without going through medical school yourself, because of many reasons (which I will, over time do my best to expose them).

I am here to be the person who I wish was there when I was still 18 and making the decision to comply and enroll in medicine.

Both me and my father did not see any of these things coming, because there was virtually no one on the internal talking about how it actually is.

My 2nd mission, and a way more challenging one, is to help those who are already “too deep” into medicine but still want a way out.

I would say I’m pretty deep in, as of now I will be graduating and have my degree along with 200k student loan debt in about 4 months.

How will I pay that back without working as a doctor? Am I insane for quitting now?

Don’t know and don’t care.

I will figure out a way, and I will prove to anyone that it’s possible, then I will show you exactly how I did it so you can save yourself from this swamp if you ever so desire.

If you’ve read this far, I salute you. Hopefully you’re not in as messed up of a situation as me and my fellow medical students are. Feel free to poke around my other content and leave comments and reviews and follows!

And most importantly, stay sane my friend.